Prayer works!!!

After applying for a Para job at a nearby district at the end of the last year, waiting a month to get turned down, being asked if I was interested in another para position about 4 months later, doing 2 interviews and waiting another month or so.......I GOT MY DREAM JOB AT A GREAT SCHOOL!!!!!! This school has higher API scores, gave me a great job, and are going to transfer the girls into the district. After weeks of worry and LOTS of prayer I decided that if they couldn't transfer the girls in then I wouldn't take the job. I have been there for my girls for every moment since they were born and I wasn't about to stop now. Something as little as dropping them off and picking them up from school means a lot to me! After finding out I'll have personal days to use in the event of a Track Meet, Play, or any special event I don't want to miss I was more in love with the job offer. But after finding out that the school was overflowing with students and wasn't able to accept any more transfers it was hard for me to give up the idea of taking my girls to school like I've done for so long now. So I emailed my contact and explained my torn emotions. How shocked was I when she called me a week later saying they crunched the numbers and could take the girls!!! The only hang up about the job was solved....obviously a move from Gods hand. Something that was impossible weeks before was now being done. I have no doubt in my whole body that God gave me the words to impress them and gave them the desire to have me and my girls.
While it hurts that the girls won't grow up Wildcats like we all did I feel better knowing I have the approval of the Lord and that they will get the best education opportunities available.

And I get to take them to school every single day.

Am I crazy?

A little sin has to be answered for just like a big sin but dadgumm some people see how far they can strech it! I don't want to have to answer for my stuff, I can't imagine standing in front of God answering to Him about some of the things people do. I don't understand how some people don't even TRY to serve the Lord or who say they do and yet do some of the most bizzare things! You would think that if Christ was in your heart you wouldn't be doing such satinistic things. I'm a sinner just like everyone else, difference is I TRY to live for Christ and sometimes I fall and do something I'm going to have to answer for, I don't walk around acting as stupid as possible and not giving a care one min. then proclaim that I'm a Christian in the next. I'm on a sopabox about this I know, but am I the only one who thinks that some people are NUTS!?

Gary Allan!!!

*Sigh* I'm missing Gary like an ex boyfriend. That was the best night ever! I've listened to his songs for so long now but to be there a few feet away singing with him in Paul arms......*deep breath*.....it doesn't get any better than that. It really changes how you feel about the music. I've heard live bands before but it's not the same as loving the songs for years (as long as I can remember) and always wondering what it would be like to watch them sing it with all THEIR emotion and life experience behind it. Gary's songs are so real and raw anyway because they are mostly about "learning how to bend" after the death of his wife Angela. Those songs have gotten me through some dark days (none like his) but just the same I can relate to hurt on his face and in his voice when he sings. It's magic, and we're planning our next concert now. I will never miss another Gary Allan concert at Eufaula and can't believe I've missed the last ones. Paul is the best hubby ever! As soon as I found out Gary was going to be this close to the house I started to whine...LOL and just like he did for our Valentines dance in High School he said no. I believe his words then were" I'm not going to no dance" and his words this time were" I'm not standing in no crowd". Then, just like so many years ago, he hands me a card and tickets fall out. *insert bursting into tears* and the best feeling ever. My prince spoils me every chance he gets. I am so blessed to have him as my husband.

Sigh.

I've lost my will to blog about my day to day. I'm super busy with the end of my school year and the school year for the girls. My teeth are hurting like a migraine right now and I'm attempting to start a helpful blog as opposed to my personal blog. Don't ask me why just feel like it. I've recently discovered that once again I can not trust anyone other than myself. I don't know why I give people the benefit of the doubt and trust them with my deepest thoughts and concerns. It makes it very hard for me to be kind and nice to people when I keep getting stabbed in the back. i am a very open and sharing person and for some reason that's a terrible thing to be. I suppose stuffy and dull are more mainstream. Sigh, whatever. I suppose I've misunderstood the meaning of friendship. I'm learning friendship is only for good times. Hmm, I thought that's what strangers were good for. I suppose a shoulder to cry on or a listening ear is out of reach . Why on earth do I expect anyone to be there and support me through my trials and stress days. I mean it couldn't be because I do that for them. No there must be something very wrong with reaching out for answers and opinions from people you look up to and admire. I do wonder what to do with emotion since talking it out is right up there with pills and wine. One of the enigmas of life I suppose.

Outcomes

So, tomorrow I am required to take the "outcomes assessment" for Connors in order to receive my degree in May. It is a 4 hour comprehensive test similar to the ACT and there is no credit for it. It is solely for the purpose of Connors knowing what level of knowledge exiting students have. Well let's see here...over the past 3 years I can tell you about the handful of information I have retained from Connors State College. past a test who can remember any of this stuff. This mess of info that I will never use. Imaginary numbers...really? I;m going to be using imaginary numbers in my job but not their kind. So to say the least I'm a bit miffed about getting up early, not being able to take the girls to school, and spending 4 hours taking a test that I don't even get a grade for completing. I wonder if they'll let me take my big ole' Starbucks cup with me? I'm going to need some liquid power for this. FYI: CSC the outcome of 3 years of night classes, classes you said I'd need then didn't (a full years worth), and the sheer agony of putting up with a bunch of teenage morons and being lumped up in the group with them is this....God handle things on HIS time not mine, and I can do all things through Christ with enough prayer....and Starbucks.

Spring Break

Well spring break was amazing! Although now that I'm home I'm looking around thinking...oh jeez...I got to get this house in order. I cleaned before I left but I need to organize! I let stuff go during the school year and on every break i take a few days (the week) and put it all in it's place (if it has a place). So my brain is a mess when it's all over the place and this last half of the semester will make me or break me as it is my last for now. So with my house in order I can fully focus on my school work and get that darned degree I've been slowly working on for the last 3 years. Sigh. Today....is going to be a therapeutic day...Did I mention I'm going to get back to exercising today? Well.......maybe tomorrow, I just found a tub of Girl Scout Thin Mint Ice Cream in the freezer. Apparently Paul is not concerned with the junk in my trunk that jiggles like jello.

Natalie Grant - I Will Not Be Moved - Official Music Video

This video rocks! I love this song. It pumps me up every time I hear it. I love songs like this, let me know of some good ones!