Sigh.

I've lost my will to blog about my day to day. I'm super busy with the end of my school year and the school year for the girls. My teeth are hurting like a migraine right now and I'm attempting to start a helpful blog as opposed to my personal blog. Don't ask me why just feel like it. I've recently discovered that once again I can not trust anyone other than myself. I don't know why I give people the benefit of the doubt and trust them with my deepest thoughts and concerns. It makes it very hard for me to be kind and nice to people when I keep getting stabbed in the back. i am a very open and sharing person and for some reason that's a terrible thing to be. I suppose stuffy and dull are more mainstream. Sigh, whatever. I suppose I've misunderstood the meaning of friendship. I'm learning friendship is only for good times. Hmm, I thought that's what strangers were good for. I suppose a shoulder to cry on or a listening ear is out of reach . Why on earth do I expect anyone to be there and support me through my trials and stress days. I mean it couldn't be because I do that for them. No there must be something very wrong with reaching out for answers and opinions from people you look up to and admire. I do wonder what to do with emotion since talking it out is right up there with pills and wine. One of the enigmas of life I suppose.